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by Robert Frost
He saw her from the bottom of the stairs
Before she saw him. She was starting down,
Looking back over her shoulder at some fear.
She took a doubtful step and then undid it
To raise herself and look again. He spoke
Advancing toward her: 'what is it you see
She turned and sank upon her skirts at that,
And
her face changed from terrified to dull.
He
said to gain time: 'What is it you see?'
Mounting
until she cowered under him.
'I will find out now - you must tell me, dear.
'
She,
in her place, refused him any help,
With
the least stiffening of her neck and silence.
She
let him look, sure that he wouldn't see,
Blind
creature; and awhile he didn't see.
But
at last he murmured, 'Oh, ' and again, ' Oh. '
'what
is it - what?' she said.
'
Just that I see. '
'You
don't, ' she challenged. 'tell me what it is.'
'The
wonder is I didn't see at once.
I
never noticed it from here before.
I
must be wonted to it - that' s the reason.
The
little graveyard where my people are!
So
small the window frames the whole of it.
Not
so much larger than a bedroom, is it?
There
are three stones of slate and one of marble,
Broad-shouldered
little slabs there in the sunlight On the sidehill. We haven't to mind those.
But
I understand: it is not the stones,
But
the child' s mound-'
'
Don' t, don' t, don' t,
don'
t, ' she cried.
She
withdrew, shrinking from beneath his arm
That
rested on the banister, and slid downstairs;
And turned on him with such a daunting look,
He
said twice over before he knew himself:
'
can' t man speak of his own child he' s lost?'
I don' t know rightly whether any man can.'
From up there always?- for I want to know.'
I must get out of here. I must get air. -
'Any!
Don't go to someone else this time.
Listen
to me. I won’t come down the stairs. '
He sat and fixed his chin between his fists.
‘There’s
something I should like to ask you, dear.'
‘You
don’t know how to ask it. '
‘Help
me, then. '
Her
fingers moved the latch for all reply.
‘My
words are nearly always an offense.
I
don’t know how to speak of anything
So
as to please you. But I might be taught,
I
should suppose. I can’t say I see how.
A
man must partly up being a man
With
womenfolk. We could have some arrangement
By
which I’d bind myself to keep hands off
Anything
special you’re a- mind to name.
Though
I don’t like such things 'twixt those that love.
Two
that don’t love can’t live together without them.
But
two that do can’t live together with them. '
She
moved the latch a little. Don’t- don’t go.
Don’t
carry it to someone else this time.
Tell
me about it if it’s something human.
Let
me into your grief. I' m not so much
unlike
other folks as your standing there
Apart
would make me out. Give me my chance.
I
do think, though, you overdo it a little.
What
was it brought you up to think it the thing?
To
take your mother- loss of a first child
So
inconsolably - in the face of love.
You’d
think his memory might be satisfied-'
‘There
you go sneering now!'
‘I’
m not, I' m not!
You make me angry. I'll come down to you.
God,
what a woman! And it's come to this,
A man can't speak of his own child that’s
dead. '
'You
can’t because you don't know how to speak.
If
you had any feelings, you that dug
With
your own hand - how could you? -his little grave;
I
saw you from that very window there,
Making
the gravel leap and leap in air,
Leap
up, like that, like that, and so lightly and roll back down the mound beside
the hole.
I
thought who is that man? I didn't know you.
And
I crept down the stairs and up the stairs
To
look again, and still your spade kept lifting.
Then
you came in. I heard your rumbling voice
Out
in the kitchen, and I don't know why,
But
I went near to see with my own eyes.
You
could sit there with the stains on your shoes
Of
the fresh earth from own baby's grave
And
talk about your everyday concerns.
You
had stood the spade up against the wall
Outside
there in the entry, for I saw it.'
'I
shall laugh the worst laugh I ever laughed.
I'm
cursed. God, if I don't believe I' m cursed.'
'I
can repeat the very words you were saying:
''Three
foggy mornings and one rainy day
Will
rot the best birch fence a man can build."
Think
of it, talk like that at such a time!
What
had how long it takes a birch to rot
To
do with what was in the darkened parlor?
You
couldn't care! The nearest friends can go
With
anyone to death, comes so far short
They might as well not try to go at all.
No,
from the time when one is sick to death,
One
is alone, and he dies more alone.
Friends
make pretense of following to the grave,
But
before one is in it, their minds are turned
And
making the best of their way back to life
And living people, and things they understand.
But the world's evil. I won't have grief so
If I can change it. Oh, I won't, I won't!
'There, You have said it all and you feel better.
You won't go now. You're crying. Close the door.
The heart's gone out of it: Why keep it up?
Amy! There's there's someone coming down the road!'
You-oh, You think the talk is all. I must go-
Somewhere out of this house. How can I make you-
If-you-do! She was opening the door wider.
'Where do you mean to go? first tell me that.
I'll follow and bring you back by force. I will!-
Source: Friends Classics, Robert Frost Selected Poems.
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